its been only 2 weeks since the end of hols, but feels like everything's kinda strange, sometimes it feels normal again, but then, sometimes it changes so fast. sometimes its a bad thing getting to know people deeper. sometimes you see their true colors shining true, and that clashes with your mental image.

reality vs illusion

life is filled with used-to-be's and whaddifs

whaddif we could be happier? whaddif i could be smarter, whaddif we were closer, what if she was less of a donkeyass? what if people spared more thought for others, what if we stopped looking at ourselves, and stop constantly believing that the world has to revolve around us, and our needs and wants? whaddif people actually stop to LISTEN, and actually bothered from deep within about how selfish we've been.

i read too much, pardon the skepticism. ho! ive been reading! good or bad, you decide.

but seriously, personally, friendships in aussie are much tougher to handle because it concerns people you DONT know inside out, backview front. my pysc friend tells me about loads of people putting up fronts. i hate it when the onion slowly becomes smaller in shape, as you chop it, strip it, peel it, WHATEVER. it makes you cry inevitably.

get my theory? GET MY POINT? i think it relates! im beggining to realise im stuck in my bubble trying really hard to break out. stone less, STOMP more! HELLO AMANDA, WAKE UP!