suddenly i see; kt tunstall

i apologise for the lack of an entry. will do it ASAP! been realleh busy, (: cos its the weekend and my uni friends kinda have their no class weekend! so have been OUT OUT OUT! from the morn till midnight! anyhows! the week is coming to an end! when they go to sch, i wont have anyone to go out with, and i'll blog then! anyway, picture of the mates im hanging out with. half of them are from my cell(:

1.superdrey. they call her p5.

2. ahboy. he's really funny. talented. SUPERSMART. and ultra retardart

3. us in simon's bug (: it feels as if ure in one of those minature theme park car ride!

4. eug and i! eug is uber funny. he's like super nice and they say he's my ahma. GUESS WHO HE WORKS FOR. damn funnaye. :D

5. skinny man and jane!

6. skinny man james and cheeky!

7. mon! major bully. but he's hou funky! his bug, his hair.

8. janeeeeeeeeeeeeeneeh! dont u think she just looks sweet and adorable here!

9. MITCH! our cell leader! whoots! man who protects me from siMON the MONster. he thinks we're like the little kids of the cell. drey and i.

the major news , summarising my whole week, I SCORED FULL MARKS FOR DRIVING THEORY. thankyou jesus! :DDDD

OOH i cant wait to blog! i cant wait to post pictures and show you guys my friends from ozzie, the land down under. my cell people and people from fcc and the ones jane and i chill with now.

I AM SNACKING SO LITTLE, but hanging out with these bunch full of guys/gals who eat good food. GOOD i tell you. ask jane! i am glad she lives opposite me! been hanging out alot! having alot of meals toget! and taking loads of pictures too!

omygoodness. dinner cost like 9- 13 dollars but its really worth it. like those one big family outting at some restaurant. we ate at unclebilly's last night again. sambal kangkong, and black pepper beeffffff. it was some AWESOME AWESOME cheena southbay land tonight! I ATE CURRY. whallao. asam curry! thank god i controlled myself. could have like swallowed buckets of curry with rice man.

jane and i were studying at their house aft church today. cheeks room is REALLY good for studying. if ure in solitude, GOOD STUFF. the guys went to play soccer btw. so it was just us and the pretty house. and maths. (simon/mitch/cheeks/james the skinnyman's house, is really pretty artsy and totally cool! really lovely ambience. very refreshing studying in sucha pretty place!)

tmr's english. i pray i do well! thanks oddball. you're a mighty great friend! leeenybabeh too! LOVEYOU! :D

tue's chem. wed's calc/









i dont know what to expect. im going in with a JUST WHACK -it feeling. my dear friends, email me and i'll tell you why. blog's too populated and too public to write. im so glad i'll be able to talk to leen soon. that's what's keeping me sane. after i buy my credit that is! so keep me in your prayers k! pray that god will see me through EVERYTHING in my life. everything. i really wanna go uni, and i am TOTALLY not gonna choose things now that gives people control over my life. im gonna take units that i am responsible for, and will be responsible for ace-ing. or b-ing.

on the day that you were born
the angels got together
and decided to create a dream come true
so they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
and starlight in your eyes of blue.

i wished i could be there to tell you NOT TO BE STRESS!
to be there to give you a great big hug and tell you that you're loved VERY VERYMUCH!
i wanna be there to make you smile silly or just to hear you rant, talk nonsence, or sit ever so still as i let you cry your heart out.
i wished we could mugg together, eating our ALL TIME MUGGING FOOD- apple chips!
i wished i could be there for you to tell me not to be silly!
and to tell me to stop wasting money on cabs.

and i'll laugh at you as i asked you how else was i supposed to get there on time.


I WISHED YOU WERE THE ONE SLEEPING ON MY BED , wished we could have OUR sleepovers, talking about everything under the bedlamp, catching up!

i wanna laugh at how u insists on leaving some source of light on because ure scared of the dark, and i wanna hear you laugh at how i'd fall aslp all of a sudden!

i wanna hear you talk nonsence and suan me as if ure the GREATEST smarty pants on earth! and i really wouldnt mind you both making fun of me. (only now perhaps!)

i wanna tell you to learn more lines of the song youre singing, and not just repeat it like a broken recorder!

i wanna say can you STOP IT! and not " im so bored!"
and i know i can beat you at battle ship!


OKAY, i dont mind you calling me dingdong! i wanna shout HI HANDSOME, and hear you go HELLO GORGEOUS, and wear our gorgess and humsum shirts without looking odd alone!


i wished i could be there to hear your problems, and i wished i could be- that part of your life. and i wanna sit there with you, at the pew, praying till we cry buckets full.

why do stars, fall down from the sky
everytime, you walk by

just like me, they long to be,
close to you

i wished we were all together, i wished u could hear me sigh.
i wished so hard that someday i'll find you when i open my eyes,
but all i see, is australia

and no you. people, but not you.
im studying where i need to and want to be studying, but ure not here with me.
-unlike how we used to talk about growing older together.

so my dear friend, can we smile like we did some years ago! like there was no tomorrow-

things that ive accomplised this week that makes cow a happy cow (:

1. I COOKED MY OWN RICE!

2. WE went crabbing; AND I CAUGHT CRABS!

3. andrew(boy) taught me how to pump petrol! so i pumped my first 7.93 L of petrol! cost $9.99 btw!

4. went for icecream at midnight, and a big macho man JUMPED behind me cos of a cockroach. :D ( I PROTECTED A GUY. HA!) just like the KOMODO DRAGON THING. (HINT HINT)

5. rode in andrew's car. drastically different from ANDROOEY's driving i must say!

cheeks, eug, mitch, andrew, skinnyman, simon are really nice guys who drive us around, but they have the most unhealthy eating times! unclebilly's at midnight.- dinner. HMMM. but they've been a really fun bunch! i had an awesome weekend! NOW TIME FOR THE CRAZY MUGGING!

hmmm, life here and people here make me treasure friends back home ALOT. really. i miss the awesome friends i have back home. people i trust so much, love too much, grow together in all aspects of life, and just hang out with each other. i miss the honesty and how much we clicked just like that.

unlike the feeling here when ure forced to come together, under SOME circumstance, and then ure expected to have common interest, same amount of maturity and become , best friends for life. its sucha sickening thought sometimes. it makes me wanna scream out in frustration sometimes- at the OBVIOUS lack of unity in mindset we have. i miss you colleeenybabeh i miss talking deep stuff with you. what nian said was true. like, there was NO ulterior motive. we love eached other because we just did! i love EVERYONE on my links list. CG and all. its quite a sickening feeling here not knowing who's trustworthy or whatever shite. if someone comes and betray me, im gonna jack them up so bad. cos i have a feeling something like that might happen. might. i dont need no fake friends alright. pissmeoff only. there's this really tense atmosphere going on here, aint good i tell you. pisses me off badly sometimes cos i didnt come here as jane said, to be a babysitter.

MOVING ON, other than that negative side of life, im loving it all i think? i taught dafffy how to use skype :D that's good stuff! now i can talk to daffunu anytime i want! after talking to daff till around 5, quickly showered, and slept for 10 mins, bfore my friend came over to wait for andrew to pick us up at 7. went with amelia and rachel and audrey, for dinner at broadway (some popular asian food place i think?) then BASKIN ROBBINS, then drove down south to meet cheeks, eug, simon, james, and abel. waited while they ate their dinner. it was already 10 by then! we were supposed to crab at 10. ANYHOWS, we drove down to mandurah, which was an hour or so away!

was slightly before midnight by the time we got there. CRABBING IS FUN! rach was so scared she was clinging on to me ): and i keep getting shocks cos she's scared of fishes! thank god there was eug who was quite a MAN. it was kinda like blind walking cos u trudge in the water to catch these crabs, with flashlights and nets of course, and its kinda freaky especially when u step in the sand holes, or when u step in algae, cos the crabs might just bite you, but i had pretty cool catches! cheeks and eug taught me how to crab! (: yea, AND I DIDNT GET INJURD!

came home at 5 am. LONG STORY. eug's car's immobaliser got wet, if that's how u spell it. we had to wait for RSA. $148 bucks, was it worth it compared to driving 2.5 hours home to get the spare immobaliser, and then driving the 2.5 hours back? (:

dear jesus, i pray that my chem test will go well tmr! i got tons to study, and i need strength. I NEED YOU LORD JESUS, so please be my guide, my strength, and my source of wisdom. the things that surround are too distracting, and sometimes far too stressful. but in u lord, we trust, and as long as i give my best, that my dear jesus, you promise you'd do the rest.

so calm my spirits and chase the fears away. chase even those negative thoughts, for we hold u dear!


- im holding on to you; hiding under your wings , for you are my strong tower

i know im truly bless. really. just when i finished that prayer, korkor came online! and then we talked! (: and then i was blog surfing for a lil, cos multi tasking, and i stumbled upon jakeeee the humsup's blog! and it made me smile! althought it was sucha LONG time ago he typed that.
gorgeous dingdong . i should be mad right? hehs.

i kindof chipped my tooth while ACCIDENTLY biting a spoon. I HAVE NO IDEA HOW IT HAPPENED. i just know i bit the spoon pretty hard over the weekend. too stressed and thinking too fast i supposed. now my front teeth has this slight curve. it looks stupid. that's because the more i look at it, the more i notice it! I HATE IT. i hope i can get smth done. i look retardart when i smile more normal big grin. so i guess its bye bye to big grin then.



till we all meet again`

OH WHAT A WONDERFUL WEEK!



WAS SO BUSY I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW I GOT BY! (THANKGOD FOR STRENGTH AND HIS GRACE!) seriously, sleeping at 4 am on a normal sch day's the craziest thing ive ever done! :/ thank god ! he has thought me how to balance my time between sch, play, and quiet time! (:



I HANDED UP MOST OF MY ESSAYS TODAY, though there are like 5 more things due, LETS WORRY LATER, now i need REST. mmmhmmm! AND THERE'S CALCULUS PRESENTATION TMR! so so so scary! my group based our project on how diffentiation would affect the fire extinguisher's content, like which shape would be the most cost efficient and practical, quite BORING I GUESScompared to this group who did on roller coasters and how differentiation affects the jerks and all, one friend's group did differentiation and COMMITING SUICIDE. goodness HOW COOL'S THAT!


BUT my calc teacher's kinda biased! there's this hongkong boy, let's call him shuaige. hahaha cos he's really very shuai, and really nice, and so on! BUT, he sleeps in my teacher's class! NOT ALWAYS, BUT ENOUGHT TO GET HIM IRRITATED, I figured. his proj, wasnt really BAD at all, compared to my teacher's PREFERED STUDENT.

IT WAS SO UNFAIR PLEASE! my teacher only gave him 9/15, when he had research, goodspeach, did preparation, and gave FULL MARKS to this other girl who didnt even prepare, NO RESEARCH, and whatever speech she just regurgitated everything my teacher said before!


the few other hongkong boys in my class were kinda mad, and cos the hongkong people are my friends, WE WERE MAD TOO! they say zhou ma! or smth. cant really rmb! i dunno what will happen to us tmr since i failed his first test! shuaige being the nice him could still tell us, "never mind ah, 9 is also quite okay ah" ):


so poor thing. sam said she felt so gek. hahahaha




OH WELLS, we can only pray and hope for the best!



BEACH PICTURES! SO AWESOME AND PRETTY! NO REGRETS GOING! was some event by FCC, ps benny ho's church. made new friends and had loads of fun then! :) except for the WORST SUN BURNT I EVER GOT, beach outting was REALLEH GOOD!


guess which one is me. everyone says im crazy about green. WHAT NONSENCE.

JUST SO YOU KNOW; the taggboard's ALL the way at the bottom of the page.

i dont know why either. :/ HAH, and my calc test was postponed. YETAGAIN. hmmmm. we're going to the beach over the weekend. for some youth thingg. I NEED AIR>

JUST SO YOU KNOW!(:

:D today the pope turns OLD! ho ho ho!


i still thing this is very funny! 3 am in the morn. (:

YOU BOTH MUST DO MORE WEIRD STUFF TOGET! and leeenybabeh! can youstop being busy and capture more of their odd acts! ONE DAY WE SHALL ALL HANG OUT!

HAPPYBIRTHDAYBOBIN :)
MMMMM. JIAYHOH WITH SCH!

the weather in perth is getting pretty annoying! it was so cold last week right! its 42 again today! yesterday was 42 degrees too! MAN WAS IT HOT!

things have kinda gone REALLY sad here. grades were kinda disheartening! )): people around -all so stress. being all kindapissassy. all my assignments are due next monday. SO STRESSED! and im taking my calc test tmr! SO FRICKIN SCARED! but anyways!

and urrrgh. my week in spore left me WAY BACK in chem! :/ but never mind trust god! trust myself. MUG HARD! MMM<. i must add wanjun and sam , are really nice people! help me ALOT for calc and chem! so YES, i was kinda depressed by my grades, but then aunty winnie's voice keep sounding in my head. like just do your bestest and i have NO need to compare myself to others, and so on, and i kinda thought it was true, like WHY AM I COMPARING> and fretting, and getting all stressed out. AND, the song I CAN MAKE IT THROUGH THE RAIN, kept playing in my head!


I CAN STAND UP ONCE AGAIN,
ON MY OWN;
and i know,
I AM STRONG ENOUGH TO MEND
AND EVERYTIME I FEEL AFRAID,
i hold TIGHTER to my faith
AND i LIVE one more day! and i MAKE IT THROUGH THE RAIN

SO I CAN MAKE IT THROUGH THIS RAIN!

and i will STAND UP,cos i am strong enough to mend! WITH GOD (:

definitely!




been blessed with these 2 little darlings! (:

so dear and entertaining. with GODPAH TOO. he sent me this queer email, him being his QUEER SELF. hehs. YAN AND MIN arent really little BUT THEY KEEP CALLING ME, --- whatever they both call me! they think its quite an affectionate term 0.0 . ANYHOWS! i miss them both! and doulos! jiaminzheei wrote an email! made me miss the ship MORE THAN EVER<>


SOMEDAY; someday!

okay! im gonna go to the library, JUST ACROSS THE STREET :D
for my english project stuff!

the only picture i took on my birthday. HO. :D with lucky giselle. as in, the only one i appear in.dont worry! i'll loose the weight alright! i havent touch any chocolate/chips in a week. sompa!

hah. no i dont sompa. (:

but YOU KNOW WHAT! my friends are really AWESOME PEOPLE! they bought me this 2 crazily large bags of processed food to eat for umm, i think a year?? those coldstorage kinda bags that are supposedly to make the environment more clean and green! MMM! i was late for sch see, and i saw these 2 strange people walking to sch during slot 2. (slot 2 's my free period) and they looked VERY FARMILIAR. and i saw all the food from a distance and thought, WOW, I GOT SURPRISE PARTY.

whatever. turned out ALL the food was for me.
CAN SOMEONE HELP SHARE! ):

anyway,
we celebrated at my fav chicken place! COME TO PERTH AND I'LL DEFINITELY DRAG YOU THERE!


mmm yess. i think my friends are bored of it already. at least shung loves them! :) and lesi too!
and now for the killer food items! these are not all! half of them already in my food storage cabinet! too lazy to take them out just for a photo (:

oh and the middle guy, he's kenneth, from hongkong, apparently his voice is ULTRA good! do you think he's cute? when sch just started, and nobody knew anybody, he was like alot of girl's eyecandy. haha. but wells, sadly, I DONT! but then hehs, i think he's ultra funny! (:


cos like his friend was cutting his hair for him, and accidently cut to deep, so he had to shave of the hair; so as not to ruin his image, BUT get this. they use normal shaver! very funny, i asked him once why his hair so un-even, cos my bro shave's his head to right, so i know what a SHAVED head must look like wad HO. :D and he said they didnt have the electric one, so they used the normal shaver!

i laughed till the guts hurt.




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I SAY OU LUA! :D


SO HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! never knew our cg was so hip and cool! WHAO. UPSIZE BLOG SOMEMORE!


daffy's becoming a bombshell, mojo's back to killing birds, jingyu's DANCING STILL. nana's on her way to be CLEO'S FASION EDITOR, or maybe aunt agony. (hehs) I HUGGED AUDREY. huimin's laughter's making me LAUGH. rachel's booobing! :D colleeeen. is , still trying to catch up from her lack of sleep last year! abbylicious gotta meet julian hee ): UNFAIR! i dunno mel yet, but someday i will! oddball calls her rainbow bag. i think! and kim! i hope she comes back! (:

OGAY. anyway, i have to say this alright, i drank my first glass of vodka here right, cos i wanted to try wad's cool about it! i cant remember wad it was mixed with but you know what! IT TASTES LIKE THAT THING THE NURSE GAVE YOU AFTER YOU BCG! so disgusting! i never drank the rest of it. *bleah just left it.


oh 18; 18.


ahahahahahahaha. should i say i feel great, PHYSICALLY.!? im blogging now at 12.52, cos i got MC. WHEEEEE(: im sick. :/ i keep getting prepared for the WRONG WEATHER, which is ABSOULUTELY TERRIBLE! mon, i wore a jacket to sch. NOTE : cant be taken off alright. cos i thought it would be freezing 15 degrees or smth. it was DEAD HOT PLEASE! was like in an oven!

THEN, tues was HOT too! so i thought weds would be hot! so i wore even thinner clothes then tues! AND GUESS WHAT! it rained!! and it was SO SO SO SO SO SOSOSOSOSOSOSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO freezing cold! mygoodness. ):


i think i caught a chill! (sounds weird but YES I DID)

so due to all the late nights and little sleep and MUGGING FOR CALCULUS TODAY, i fell sick, got sore eyes. just 60 bucks to late the doctor shine some torch light in my eyes and feel my throat. i told her i got the chill, and she just gave me 2 days MC like that. so weird woman. didnt even FORCE me to buy medcine. VERY GOOD i must say!

i am gonna claim my 60 dollars tmr! (:



HERE's my new home! I LOVE IT HERE! its rather homeey. and very neat. and clean (: just like my own home in spore. and they use alot of blue towels too. like mummy does back home! i think its a NURSES thingg (: . anyway, no time to photoshop it, but well, its rather messy now, UNLIKE THE PIC. hehs!

BTW, its korkorpoo's birthday today! :D