its been only 2 weeks since the end of hols, but feels like everything's kinda strange, sometimes it feels normal again, but then, sometimes it changes so fast. sometimes its a bad thing getting to know people deeper. sometimes you see their true colors shining true, and that clashes with your mental image.

reality vs illusion

life is filled with used-to-be's and whaddifs

whaddif we could be happier? whaddif i could be smarter, whaddif we were closer, what if she was less of a donkeyass? what if people spared more thought for others, what if we stopped looking at ourselves, and stop constantly believing that the world has to revolve around us, and our needs and wants? whaddif people actually stop to LISTEN, and actually bothered from deep within about how selfish we've been.

i read too much, pardon the skepticism. ho! ive been reading! good or bad, you decide.

but seriously, personally, friendships in aussie are much tougher to handle because it concerns people you DONT know inside out, backview front. my pysc friend tells me about loads of people putting up fronts. i hate it when the onion slowly becomes smaller in shape, as you chop it, strip it, peel it, WHATEVER. it makes you cry inevitably.

get my theory? GET MY POINT? i think it relates! im beggining to realise im stuck in my bubble trying really hard to break out. stone less, STOMP more! HELLO AMANDA, WAKE UP!

i suddenly feel very much homesick again ):
i crave the ou lua. hokkien mee, laksa, CHICKEN RICE, wanton mee, daddy's stingray, nan's yellowbean soup, SIGLAP YONGTAUFOO, my ABSOLUTE OLD CHANGKEE FAV, crabwrap. curry puffs, bengawan solo, breakfast after cg on sunday if ever, WHITE CHAI DAO KWEI with chilly. and popiah.

aiya enough. the yong tau foo here sucks big time, its HARD, and taste old. i dunno. not the soft fresh kind.i miss waking up and complaining to mummy im hungry, and actually have food at home, or mummy ready to WHIP up something for me. I AM SO HUNGRY. I MISS HOW FOOD IS SO CHEAP BACK HOME, i think i can spend THOUSANDS on food here ):

BAD BAD THING. i should go apply for bursary. provide for my hungry stomach!





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realise im quite a pig/glutton! maybe its just today. SO COLD, and i wore like this skirt like overall, / jumpers/ whatever u wanna call it. like those farmer kind (: I LIKE! my legs were freezing my butt off. i didnt think the temperature would drop! the weather's crazy. it was hot on sunday!

but summer's over already! its autumn now, but some people call it winter. I DONT KNOW WHY. i hope i dont get hungry, cos most people put on the pounds during winter cos its so cold you get hungry easy!

its the second week of school! GUESS WHAT, thanks to cheek's madness trainings for MY running, i can like push myself now! i WILLINGLY RAN to the bell tower! form jane/stace' house, should be around 4.5km -5. -and then the same distance back! (9-10 !) really RUNNING with ahboy during the last 2 km! the 3 km before that was jogging(:

I AM SO HAPPY! my goodness! what good workout! and after that crazy evening on sunday, we ran around 5 km yesterday! to swan brewary. this timewith SIMON. now my muscles hurt! anyhow's! with such crazy army man running with me i think i'll improve! but the cold is starting to get worst and like WHO WOULDWANNA GO RUNNING!?


idont like rain ):
i hope they start making prettyrain boots!
its so cold ):
TOMORROW'S ANZAC day! holiday yea (: goodstuff!

mary's leaving tonight! i think her plane just took off ):

mazy and mitch the big brother!
so sad huh! i bet erge must be soso so sad! drey and i baked her heartshaped cookies this evening after school. i think they looked rather pretty! (drey bakes good stuff!) but strangely, maryanne didnt even know they were heart-shaped! we gave each one of the boys a beeg heart shape cookie! for a smile before their test/exam(:

seeya when we get back mary! we'll miss you and we love you!

the gift of time, is a precious gift
of love and hope and all the most treausured bliss
will you stay if i asked you too,
or give me a minute, or perhaps slightly over two.

i wanna say im sorry, and that i wished that i could've spend more time with you,
but then it begins to seem meaningless, because reality hits you.
i wanna hold on to your frail hand, i wanna sit beside you.
i wanna sing a song of hope, or sit there wondering if the wounds would heal.
i wish i could fathom the amount of pain, or perhaps, just begin to understand what it means to wane.

please lord jesus, please hear our cry,
hear my cry at least, just one last time.

it isnt over, cos im not home yet.
dont let it be over,
and dear Lord jesus let the cells NOT spread.
if im being selfish,
then please let her be spared.
but its a little unfair, for the pain we all cant bear.

so in our sadness, let there be smiles,
and in the uncomprehendable sorrows, a touch of - faith hope and joy







how can this be. how can this be!
my eyes are tired. i am tired.

- donmoen; hiding place

omygoodness! captains ball yesterday was total SWEAT IT OUT. all simon's recruits got split up! CAN YOU IMAGINE! honestly, i cant imagine all of us playing together. cheeks, james, sherms, drey, simon, mitch. really. the guys are crazily great by themselves already!

i had to sweat it out playing for rosymont, (if that's how its spelt :/) ALONE in a new team! i guess it was good! here in aussie, people call me mandie straight away when they learn my name's amanda, MMM. so throughout the game they were like mandie mandie! i kinda like it! HO.

then during the last round, mon's team needed a player! and they were like bennett bennett play for us! so i played with sherms joette simon james (TURBO MAN) dennis and their other cell member! WAS SO FUN!

they heard me call shermbit SHERMPIT. as in armpit!


oh wells! he's a great friend! awesome running buddy (unlike the mad ns men) very fun to play competitve sport with him in your team! drey and i hopes he comes back after ns! would be great fun! shermbugs' departure today signifies the start of HARDWORK! so we'll pack up the joys laughter and madness, and take it all out in june! till we meet again buddy!


(everyone's mugging ; its so strange!)

today i woke up, read, did some maths, cleaned up my room, drank milk, and took a bus to the city to meet cheeks shermbugs and drey! i thank GOD cheek's siblings came to visit! FINALLY get to act as a tourist in perth! hahahahah! have never done that, and it feels good having an excuse to be sua ku and take photos of everything and anything! check us out here! we look like we're in amsterdam or smth!


still at this spot. because all the passerby that took our pictures werent good enought, therefore, we resorted to taking 3 by 3. but we had 3 cameras! so our pictures are all scattered! will go cope from shermbits and drey tmr! :)



here's an anyhow done version of all our standing photos! we passed a cigar shop! quite unplesant smelling i must say! we walked to the bell tower, and then back after to the city again! had dinner at takas, this jap place that sells cheap food! with mitch the big brother, danielhuang, james, and had coffee with mon, mary, candeee, alvin, justin/his fiancee, stace joette, and a few others!

gonna go running tmr morn after qt, with drey and andrew, and then have brekkie and then study till 1, where mitch will pick us up to go apsley for some captain's ball competition! hope we win! there's a footie to be won! OOOG! hahahahaha.

I THINK I SHOULD GET BACK INTO MY HABIT OF BLOGGING DETAILS. feels so retardart not doing it nowadays! so WHOOM! beware. photos galore!

its frickin irritating how i lost all the pictures i took yesterday! WAS SO MAD AT MYSELF! was combine cell steamboat/ bbq yesterday! was simply awesome! the first time stace,cheeks, sherman and sherilyn (cheek's siblings) and drey and i went to buy the groceries from northbridge; chinatown. but cos it was easter monday, the butcher was close, so we went back yesterday, sherms cheeks drey and i. had alot of fun! talking nonsence and all! corica's! and preparing our food!

the day before, we went toget to send sherilyn off, ): cos she was going back to melb! wished she was studying here though! she's so sweet and so nice to talk to! and she's funny! and i like her!

shermbits is going back on sunday! oooogh! ): we went running this evening down mountsbay. cheeks and drey were like running at horse's speed, and sherms and i were like at the back. he makes me feel better! unlike turbo man and cheeks who run so fast! if shermbits studied here, i would have the perfect running mate!

but in all honesty, steamboat was really fun. eug and cheeks eat alot! ho. they are always eating my food :D and i love cooking for people! after the whole thingg ended, they were playing this drinking game, except the loser drank up half a cup of coke, or wadever food that was left. very funny game! everyone had to make this TOOOD sound. i think ahboy's neighbours werent too happy :)


we left after taking ALOT OF PICTURES< (will post up when i cope from other people) yepp! receive a call last night, the guy went " bennett ar, " and i was like OoOOOOoo farmiliar name! and i couldnt figure out who that person was! all the people in spore ran through my mind, and then the guy was like " you dont know who i am?! i am your er ge lar!" stooops. make me feel so happy for nothing! he's forever calling me and pretending to be some optus/bank west man. RGH! but he was really nice! he took pet too leederville for coffee cos the north zone's combine bbq hadnt ended, but the south's one already had. then after he drove all the way down north to my house to send pet here, and drove all the way back, nice brudder in deed (: i cooked pet porridge today! so happy! it was really soft! my favorite! im glad i kinda mastered cooking yummy porridge! after that we popped by drey's and watched a movie while i kinda slept, and drey baked sticky chewy cookies that were simply OUT OF THIS WORLD. like totally. they were REALLEH good. so after we went running, which was technically jogging, but whooo, i think thanks to cheeks, im really running now! the last time kings park with him and turbo man was really UP HILL till can die, this time was alright! ((: so after running, had dinner at stace's

big brother (da ge), er ge, san ge, and si ge.


very funny. we call them that, san ge and si ge sounds frickin funny. and odd. cheeks hates it. so its just cheeks. but they take care of drey and i so whoohoo! we watched a korean drama together today. so funny watching with the guys. they kept saying it was ONE KIND STUPID and the guys in the show were ONE KIND ugly. MMMM.

let me just list down the amount of food ive been eating that has been pretty good! pity i didnt have my camera with me everyday! first up! was last thursday! when i went to school to hand up my assignment! i was so blessed :) being late was a good thing afterall! i missed the bus and cheeky called! and ahboy came to pick me up! YES! super lucky! so we drove down to northbridge where everybody was, and went for dim sum lunch! HARGAO! WHEEEE (:


then after quite good dimsum lunch, was shopping at harbour town. i didnt really like it cos we spent alot of money ): but i got alot of things for ridiculously cheap prices! and after that, we got in james's car and drove to uwa. where we chilled and i studied for my theory test! :D and the uni people tried to study. after that we waited for mitch, and everyone like kinda split ways, the others went for dinner and all. mitch took jane and i too some REALLEH GOOD jap place for dinner before going to church, where jane was dancing(:


then the next day, WE WOKE AT 6, to go to citywest! was my first time taking the train! (: and then after jane and i went for really short window shopping trip, before rushing home to meet her friend jude, who was bringing us to subi market! I BOUGHT ALOT OF FRUITS (: very very delightful! 10 dollars worth of it! i had loads of grapes, four really big plums! REALLEH SWEET MUMMY (: and i bought half a melon for 2 bucks! i think its preetty cheap considering the sweetness of it all!



SIMON, being retardart came to pick me up from subi market when i couldve just gone home with jude and jane! anyway, we went to pick ahboy up from school, drop off my fruits at home, and went to cottoesloe BEACH! REALLY REALLY PRETTAYE AGAIN! pictures with MON, will up load soon (:



we had really good fries and wages there thought! it was really really good! with the sauces and all (:





and after was FRIDAYNIGHTLIVE. some youth plus youngadult thingg at church. it ended pretty late, and the guys wanted to eat dinner, so we all drove down to fasteddy's down south, reached home around 1am (:



AND THEN SATURDAY! was supposed to meet drey at the bus stop at 11.35. our FIRST time taking bus and not relying on the guys to drive us(: BUT MISS SOMEONE woke up 10 mins before we were supposed to meet! omygoodnesss! i waited at the bus stop and had good alone time with God. my legs grew alot tanner too! anyways, we had to wait an hour anyway, but cheeks called! and asked us to go with eug! :D so we went to eug's house to chill while he did his hanging of laundry and all that. ONCE AGAIN, being late's good stuff (:



so drey and i went with eug to fremantle! (: awesome stuff! met MON and cheeks and had fish and chips for lunch. at 3pm. then we went to cold rock for ice cream. but i didnt get anything, cos i wanted crepes, (everyone said it was good!) BUT. wells, the barbeque simon wanted to bring me and drey too had already started, so we drove down to king's park. for REALLEH GOOD bbq. *nods head!


james joette irene were there! after bbq, we drove down to leederville (: where ahboy came and we had desert. my goodness. my first cup of cold chocolate. ITS AWESOME! i was awesome! really really good!

hah. and then came sunday, had really good lunch at taurus. YUMMM(: then after was home with jane, and drey, lots of fruits and icecream(: then drey rushed home to cook for cherie. so it was janeh and i. then nudge called, wanting to go for a spin, and simon too, so we met up with james and simon and went for supposed coffee at tarrazza's but they were closing already! so we went for ice cream. ): really good ferrero icecream!

OKAY! then came monday! i stayed over at jane's watching click. had indo food for dinner after badminton with them. i kinda enjoyed the indo food(: and after we dropped of simon and maryanne who went to play squash with ahboy, and then cheeks mitch drey and i went to watch netball matches! MMMMMM! i felt like playing so bad! with yuyu and est of course! and the whole team. ARG!

OH WELLS. went to tarazza's for REALLY GOOD CAKE! will def take pictures next time. its honest to death the most worth-it cake u'll ever eat here (: hahahah. the melting chocolate was MMMMMMM.

had 2nd driving lesson yest. then baked muffins at drey's house yesterday. it was alright i guess(: james and ahboy and jane came over. we watched korean shows, which jane got totally hooked. and ahboy asked me to call him kor kor. he's WORST THEN MY BROTHER. he farts IN YOUR FACE. tsk! and there's the bubble sound too! and he doesnt care :/ he fart so much that everybody kinda gets annoyed. but i keep laughing! WHICH IS BAD.

SO ANYHOWS. tmr's camp (: we're gonna go camping! i hope we drive downsouth next week ): if not the break's kinda wasted! but anyhoos. study study study!