a million reasons you should get a lumix and come to melbourne!

maybe i should make this blog one wheere i put what i cook!

hur!


till then, http://xanga.com/alll_iwant

((:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WONNY!

now ive officially posted this everywhere. HO.

(((:

hahs. new intake new intake. april intake people! this was dimsum lunch day! gaby is so pretty! she's g's cousin! how small is singapore YOU TELL ME. then the blue guy's gaba's boyfriend's bro. SEE. point proven. his name's fangren.lesi's in the pic too, and the last boy's jek. JEK is SO MUCH LIKE WONNY. so demanding. too much man. (:
hohoho!


gaba and i (: prettaye gaba! and that fungiiss. because i love eating hargao so much he was like HA! COW! so they used to call me HA! COW. :/ now its just cow. or wadever. that fungi was so idiotic. we didnt even know he snuck into our picture!

and this is v! victoria! she's super adorable! i like her! she's like the little sister i always wanted, but never ever could have! she's so funny! like sometimes she just follows what i do! like once, strangely our airconditioned class room had a fly. i was paying attention during maths class, but suddenly i couldnt resists it, and used my pen to whack the fly, a few secs later, from the corner of my eye i saw the dear girl doing the same thing! and another time, i hummed the pink panther song to myself really softly, and like the LONG VERSION of it, and when i stopped, someone hummed the same thingg.

might sound really lame, but then its really cute when you look at her innocent face after doing whatever you did, and she gives you that "heh heh" smile after imitating you. hahaha. so funny :) she's so sweet too! mmm! and best, my whole time table is EXACTLY the same as hers. cant been that man!


then there's jek. he's like SUPER CHILDISH, but super grown up at the same time! he's super mean! but is also SUPER NICE. mmm. these small boys. come here for a year and go back for army. ARMY. he's a really nice kiddo. although, sadly, half the time he acts like cheeky chan ): he says im blessed with one beeg brother and one small brother.


PERHAPS that's true (:

after church on sun, everyone left, cheeks and bobby asked me to go scones with them. i thought bobby was my ride, since mitch wanted to go home first, so i told cheeks that i'd go have scones with them. long story , some miscommunication, anyway, ended up at the guys' house where drey and i were supposed to have dinner. drey and i cooked dinner, and while the onion rolled, i accidently sliced my finger with the chopper. crazy blood kept flowing. i was amazed at their concern. cheeky sprayed on some spray on plaster. was really good! stop the blood from coming out! and then because this has to be the 1023948282 time i injurd my fingers, judging from the still visible scars from the week before, he said i should stop cooking. or they should get me an armour. i thought that was so funny :)

i guess its time to suck it all in.
more than ever i think what moejoe said's thru. maybe ive been influenced too much by her concepts. sometimes i like it. i feel wise. i feel wise.
\

but you and i both know what part of moejoe im feeling. i know nana knows this part of me. wha. damn sian. its time to quit it. dum shuts.



god give me strength.

its been only 2 weeks since the end of hols, but feels like everything's kinda strange, sometimes it feels normal again, but then, sometimes it changes so fast. sometimes its a bad thing getting to know people deeper. sometimes you see their true colors shining true, and that clashes with your mental image.

reality vs illusion

life is filled with used-to-be's and whaddifs

whaddif we could be happier? whaddif i could be smarter, whaddif we were closer, what if she was less of a donkeyass? what if people spared more thought for others, what if we stopped looking at ourselves, and stop constantly believing that the world has to revolve around us, and our needs and wants? whaddif people actually stop to LISTEN, and actually bothered from deep within about how selfish we've been.

i read too much, pardon the skepticism. ho! ive been reading! good or bad, you decide.

but seriously, personally, friendships in aussie are much tougher to handle because it concerns people you DONT know inside out, backview front. my pysc friend tells me about loads of people putting up fronts. i hate it when the onion slowly becomes smaller in shape, as you chop it, strip it, peel it, WHATEVER. it makes you cry inevitably.

get my theory? GET MY POINT? i think it relates! im beggining to realise im stuck in my bubble trying really hard to break out. stone less, STOMP more! HELLO AMANDA, WAKE UP!

i suddenly feel very much homesick again ):
i crave the ou lua. hokkien mee, laksa, CHICKEN RICE, wanton mee, daddy's stingray, nan's yellowbean soup, SIGLAP YONGTAUFOO, my ABSOLUTE OLD CHANGKEE FAV, crabwrap. curry puffs, bengawan solo, breakfast after cg on sunday if ever, WHITE CHAI DAO KWEI with chilly. and popiah.

aiya enough. the yong tau foo here sucks big time, its HARD, and taste old. i dunno. not the soft fresh kind.i miss waking up and complaining to mummy im hungry, and actually have food at home, or mummy ready to WHIP up something for me. I AM SO HUNGRY. I MISS HOW FOOD IS SO CHEAP BACK HOME, i think i can spend THOUSANDS on food here ):

BAD BAD THING. i should go apply for bursary. provide for my hungry stomach!





):
realise im quite a pig/glutton! maybe its just today. SO COLD, and i wore like this skirt like overall, / jumpers/ whatever u wanna call it. like those farmer kind (: I LIKE! my legs were freezing my butt off. i didnt think the temperature would drop! the weather's crazy. it was hot on sunday!

but summer's over already! its autumn now, but some people call it winter. I DONT KNOW WHY. i hope i dont get hungry, cos most people put on the pounds during winter cos its so cold you get hungry easy!

its the second week of school! GUESS WHAT, thanks to cheek's madness trainings for MY running, i can like push myself now! i WILLINGLY RAN to the bell tower! form jane/stace' house, should be around 4.5km -5. -and then the same distance back! (9-10 !) really RUNNING with ahboy during the last 2 km! the 3 km before that was jogging(:

I AM SO HAPPY! my goodness! what good workout! and after that crazy evening on sunday, we ran around 5 km yesterday! to swan brewary. this timewith SIMON. now my muscles hurt! anyhow's! with such crazy army man running with me i think i'll improve! but the cold is starting to get worst and like WHO WOULDWANNA GO RUNNING!?


idont like rain ):
i hope they start making prettyrain boots!
its so cold ):
TOMORROW'S ANZAC day! holiday yea (: goodstuff!

mary's leaving tonight! i think her plane just took off ):

mazy and mitch the big brother!
so sad huh! i bet erge must be soso so sad! drey and i baked her heartshaped cookies this evening after school. i think they looked rather pretty! (drey bakes good stuff!) but strangely, maryanne didnt even know they were heart-shaped! we gave each one of the boys a beeg heart shape cookie! for a smile before their test/exam(:

seeya when we get back mary! we'll miss you and we love you!

the gift of time, is a precious gift
of love and hope and all the most treausured bliss
will you stay if i asked you too,
or give me a minute, or perhaps slightly over two.

i wanna say im sorry, and that i wished that i could've spend more time with you,
but then it begins to seem meaningless, because reality hits you.
i wanna hold on to your frail hand, i wanna sit beside you.
i wanna sing a song of hope, or sit there wondering if the wounds would heal.
i wish i could fathom the amount of pain, or perhaps, just begin to understand what it means to wane.

please lord jesus, please hear our cry,
hear my cry at least, just one last time.

it isnt over, cos im not home yet.
dont let it be over,
and dear Lord jesus let the cells NOT spread.
if im being selfish,
then please let her be spared.
but its a little unfair, for the pain we all cant bear.

so in our sadness, let there be smiles,
and in the uncomprehendable sorrows, a touch of - faith hope and joy







how can this be. how can this be!
my eyes are tired. i am tired.

- donmoen; hiding place

omygoodness! captains ball yesterday was total SWEAT IT OUT. all simon's recruits got split up! CAN YOU IMAGINE! honestly, i cant imagine all of us playing together. cheeks, james, sherms, drey, simon, mitch. really. the guys are crazily great by themselves already!

i had to sweat it out playing for rosymont, (if that's how its spelt :/) ALONE in a new team! i guess it was good! here in aussie, people call me mandie straight away when they learn my name's amanda, MMM. so throughout the game they were like mandie mandie! i kinda like it! HO.

then during the last round, mon's team needed a player! and they were like bennett bennett play for us! so i played with sherms joette simon james (TURBO MAN) dennis and their other cell member! WAS SO FUN!

they heard me call shermbit SHERMPIT. as in armpit!


oh wells! he's a great friend! awesome running buddy (unlike the mad ns men) very fun to play competitve sport with him in your team! drey and i hopes he comes back after ns! would be great fun! shermbugs' departure today signifies the start of HARDWORK! so we'll pack up the joys laughter and madness, and take it all out in june! till we meet again buddy!


(everyone's mugging ; its so strange!)

today i woke up, read, did some maths, cleaned up my room, drank milk, and took a bus to the city to meet cheeks shermbugs and drey! i thank GOD cheek's siblings came to visit! FINALLY get to act as a tourist in perth! hahahahah! have never done that, and it feels good having an excuse to be sua ku and take photos of everything and anything! check us out here! we look like we're in amsterdam or smth!


still at this spot. because all the passerby that took our pictures werent good enought, therefore, we resorted to taking 3 by 3. but we had 3 cameras! so our pictures are all scattered! will go cope from shermbits and drey tmr! :)



here's an anyhow done version of all our standing photos! we passed a cigar shop! quite unplesant smelling i must say! we walked to the bell tower, and then back after to the city again! had dinner at takas, this jap place that sells cheap food! with mitch the big brother, danielhuang, james, and had coffee with mon, mary, candeee, alvin, justin/his fiancee, stace joette, and a few others!

gonna go running tmr morn after qt, with drey and andrew, and then have brekkie and then study till 1, where mitch will pick us up to go apsley for some captain's ball competition! hope we win! there's a footie to be won! OOOG! hahahahaha.

I THINK I SHOULD GET BACK INTO MY HABIT OF BLOGGING DETAILS. feels so retardart not doing it nowadays! so WHOOM! beware. photos galore!

its frickin irritating how i lost all the pictures i took yesterday! WAS SO MAD AT MYSELF! was combine cell steamboat/ bbq yesterday! was simply awesome! the first time stace,cheeks, sherman and sherilyn (cheek's siblings) and drey and i went to buy the groceries from northbridge; chinatown. but cos it was easter monday, the butcher was close, so we went back yesterday, sherms cheeks drey and i. had alot of fun! talking nonsence and all! corica's! and preparing our food!

the day before, we went toget to send sherilyn off, ): cos she was going back to melb! wished she was studying here though! she's so sweet and so nice to talk to! and she's funny! and i like her!

shermbits is going back on sunday! oooogh! ): we went running this evening down mountsbay. cheeks and drey were like running at horse's speed, and sherms and i were like at the back. he makes me feel better! unlike turbo man and cheeks who run so fast! if shermbits studied here, i would have the perfect running mate!

but in all honesty, steamboat was really fun. eug and cheeks eat alot! ho. they are always eating my food :D and i love cooking for people! after the whole thingg ended, they were playing this drinking game, except the loser drank up half a cup of coke, or wadever food that was left. very funny game! everyone had to make this TOOOD sound. i think ahboy's neighbours werent too happy :)


we left after taking ALOT OF PICTURES< (will post up when i cope from other people) yepp! receive a call last night, the guy went " bennett ar, " and i was like OoOOOOoo farmiliar name! and i couldnt figure out who that person was! all the people in spore ran through my mind, and then the guy was like " you dont know who i am?! i am your er ge lar!" stooops. make me feel so happy for nothing! he's forever calling me and pretending to be some optus/bank west man. RGH! but he was really nice! he took pet too leederville for coffee cos the north zone's combine bbq hadnt ended, but the south's one already had. then after he drove all the way down north to my house to send pet here, and drove all the way back, nice brudder in deed (: i cooked pet porridge today! so happy! it was really soft! my favorite! im glad i kinda mastered cooking yummy porridge! after that we popped by drey's and watched a movie while i kinda slept, and drey baked sticky chewy cookies that were simply OUT OF THIS WORLD. like totally. they were REALLEH good. so after we went running, which was technically jogging, but whooo, i think thanks to cheeks, im really running now! the last time kings park with him and turbo man was really UP HILL till can die, this time was alright! ((: so after running, had dinner at stace's

big brother (da ge), er ge, san ge, and si ge.


very funny. we call them that, san ge and si ge sounds frickin funny. and odd. cheeks hates it. so its just cheeks. but they take care of drey and i so whoohoo! we watched a korean drama together today. so funny watching with the guys. they kept saying it was ONE KIND STUPID and the guys in the show were ONE KIND ugly. MMMM.

let me just list down the amount of food ive been eating that has been pretty good! pity i didnt have my camera with me everyday! first up! was last thursday! when i went to school to hand up my assignment! i was so blessed :) being late was a good thing afterall! i missed the bus and cheeky called! and ahboy came to pick me up! YES! super lucky! so we drove down to northbridge where everybody was, and went for dim sum lunch! HARGAO! WHEEEE (:


then after quite good dimsum lunch, was shopping at harbour town. i didnt really like it cos we spent alot of money ): but i got alot of things for ridiculously cheap prices! and after that, we got in james's car and drove to uwa. where we chilled and i studied for my theory test! :D and the uni people tried to study. after that we waited for mitch, and everyone like kinda split ways, the others went for dinner and all. mitch took jane and i too some REALLEH GOOD jap place for dinner before going to church, where jane was dancing(:


then the next day, WE WOKE AT 6, to go to citywest! was my first time taking the train! (: and then after jane and i went for really short window shopping trip, before rushing home to meet her friend jude, who was bringing us to subi market! I BOUGHT ALOT OF FRUITS (: very very delightful! 10 dollars worth of it! i had loads of grapes, four really big plums! REALLEH SWEET MUMMY (: and i bought half a melon for 2 bucks! i think its preetty cheap considering the sweetness of it all!



SIMON, being retardart came to pick me up from subi market when i couldve just gone home with jude and jane! anyway, we went to pick ahboy up from school, drop off my fruits at home, and went to cottoesloe BEACH! REALLY REALLY PRETTAYE AGAIN! pictures with MON, will up load soon (:



we had really good fries and wages there thought! it was really really good! with the sauces and all (:





and after was FRIDAYNIGHTLIVE. some youth plus youngadult thingg at church. it ended pretty late, and the guys wanted to eat dinner, so we all drove down to fasteddy's down south, reached home around 1am (:



AND THEN SATURDAY! was supposed to meet drey at the bus stop at 11.35. our FIRST time taking bus and not relying on the guys to drive us(: BUT MISS SOMEONE woke up 10 mins before we were supposed to meet! omygoodnesss! i waited at the bus stop and had good alone time with God. my legs grew alot tanner too! anyways, we had to wait an hour anyway, but cheeks called! and asked us to go with eug! :D so we went to eug's house to chill while he did his hanging of laundry and all that. ONCE AGAIN, being late's good stuff (:



so drey and i went with eug to fremantle! (: awesome stuff! met MON and cheeks and had fish and chips for lunch. at 3pm. then we went to cold rock for ice cream. but i didnt get anything, cos i wanted crepes, (everyone said it was good!) BUT. wells, the barbeque simon wanted to bring me and drey too had already started, so we drove down to king's park. for REALLEH GOOD bbq. *nods head!


james joette irene were there! after bbq, we drove down to leederville (: where ahboy came and we had desert. my goodness. my first cup of cold chocolate. ITS AWESOME! i was awesome! really really good!

hah. and then came sunday, had really good lunch at taurus. YUMMM(: then after was home with jane, and drey, lots of fruits and icecream(: then drey rushed home to cook for cherie. so it was janeh and i. then nudge called, wanting to go for a spin, and simon too, so we met up with james and simon and went for supposed coffee at tarrazza's but they were closing already! so we went for ice cream. ): really good ferrero icecream!

OKAY! then came monday! i stayed over at jane's watching click. had indo food for dinner after badminton with them. i kinda enjoyed the indo food(: and after we dropped of simon and maryanne who went to play squash with ahboy, and then cheeks mitch drey and i went to watch netball matches! MMMMMM! i felt like playing so bad! with yuyu and est of course! and the whole team. ARG!

OH WELLS. went to tarazza's for REALLY GOOD CAKE! will def take pictures next time. its honest to death the most worth-it cake u'll ever eat here (: hahahah. the melting chocolate was MMMMMMM.

had 2nd driving lesson yest. then baked muffins at drey's house yesterday. it was alright i guess(: james and ahboy and jane came over. we watched korean shows, which jane got totally hooked. and ahboy asked me to call him kor kor. he's WORST THEN MY BROTHER. he farts IN YOUR FACE. tsk! and there's the bubble sound too! and he doesnt care :/ he fart so much that everybody kinda gets annoyed. but i keep laughing! WHICH IS BAD.

SO ANYHOWS. tmr's camp (: we're gonna go camping! i hope we drive downsouth next week ): if not the break's kinda wasted! but anyhoos. study study study!

suddenly i see; kt tunstall

i apologise for the lack of an entry. will do it ASAP! been realleh busy, (: cos its the weekend and my uni friends kinda have their no class weekend! so have been OUT OUT OUT! from the morn till midnight! anyhows! the week is coming to an end! when they go to sch, i wont have anyone to go out with, and i'll blog then! anyway, picture of the mates im hanging out with. half of them are from my cell(:

1.superdrey. they call her p5.

2. ahboy. he's really funny. talented. SUPERSMART. and ultra retardart

3. us in simon's bug (: it feels as if ure in one of those minature theme park car ride!

4. eug and i! eug is uber funny. he's like super nice and they say he's my ahma. GUESS WHO HE WORKS FOR. damn funnaye. :D

5. skinny man and jane!

6. skinny man james and cheeky!

7. mon! major bully. but he's hou funky! his bug, his hair.

8. janeeeeeeeeeeeeeneeh! dont u think she just looks sweet and adorable here!

9. MITCH! our cell leader! whoots! man who protects me from siMON the MONster. he thinks we're like the little kids of the cell. drey and i.

the major news , summarising my whole week, I SCORED FULL MARKS FOR DRIVING THEORY. thankyou jesus! :DDDD

OOH i cant wait to blog! i cant wait to post pictures and show you guys my friends from ozzie, the land down under. my cell people and people from fcc and the ones jane and i chill with now.

I AM SNACKING SO LITTLE, but hanging out with these bunch full of guys/gals who eat good food. GOOD i tell you. ask jane! i am glad she lives opposite me! been hanging out alot! having alot of meals toget! and taking loads of pictures too!

omygoodness. dinner cost like 9- 13 dollars but its really worth it. like those one big family outting at some restaurant. we ate at unclebilly's last night again. sambal kangkong, and black pepper beeffffff. it was some AWESOME AWESOME cheena southbay land tonight! I ATE CURRY. whallao. asam curry! thank god i controlled myself. could have like swallowed buckets of curry with rice man.

jane and i were studying at their house aft church today. cheeks room is REALLY good for studying. if ure in solitude, GOOD STUFF. the guys went to play soccer btw. so it was just us and the pretty house. and maths. (simon/mitch/cheeks/james the skinnyman's house, is really pretty artsy and totally cool! really lovely ambience. very refreshing studying in sucha pretty place!)

tmr's english. i pray i do well! thanks oddball. you're a mighty great friend! leeenybabeh too! LOVEYOU! :D

tue's chem. wed's calc/









i dont know what to expect. im going in with a JUST WHACK -it feeling. my dear friends, email me and i'll tell you why. blog's too populated and too public to write. im so glad i'll be able to talk to leen soon. that's what's keeping me sane. after i buy my credit that is! so keep me in your prayers k! pray that god will see me through EVERYTHING in my life. everything. i really wanna go uni, and i am TOTALLY not gonna choose things now that gives people control over my life. im gonna take units that i am responsible for, and will be responsible for ace-ing. or b-ing.

on the day that you were born
the angels got together
and decided to create a dream come true
so they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
and starlight in your eyes of blue.

i wished i could be there to tell you NOT TO BE STRESS!
to be there to give you a great big hug and tell you that you're loved VERY VERYMUCH!
i wanna be there to make you smile silly or just to hear you rant, talk nonsence, or sit ever so still as i let you cry your heart out.
i wished we could mugg together, eating our ALL TIME MUGGING FOOD- apple chips!
i wished i could be there for you to tell me not to be silly!
and to tell me to stop wasting money on cabs.

and i'll laugh at you as i asked you how else was i supposed to get there on time.


I WISHED YOU WERE THE ONE SLEEPING ON MY BED , wished we could have OUR sleepovers, talking about everything under the bedlamp, catching up!

i wanna laugh at how u insists on leaving some source of light on because ure scared of the dark, and i wanna hear you laugh at how i'd fall aslp all of a sudden!

i wanna hear you talk nonsence and suan me as if ure the GREATEST smarty pants on earth! and i really wouldnt mind you both making fun of me. (only now perhaps!)

i wanna tell you to learn more lines of the song youre singing, and not just repeat it like a broken recorder!

i wanna say can you STOP IT! and not " im so bored!"
and i know i can beat you at battle ship!


OKAY, i dont mind you calling me dingdong! i wanna shout HI HANDSOME, and hear you go HELLO GORGEOUS, and wear our gorgess and humsum shirts without looking odd alone!


i wished i could be there to hear your problems, and i wished i could be- that part of your life. and i wanna sit there with you, at the pew, praying till we cry buckets full.

why do stars, fall down from the sky
everytime, you walk by

just like me, they long to be,
close to you

i wished we were all together, i wished u could hear me sigh.
i wished so hard that someday i'll find you when i open my eyes,
but all i see, is australia

and no you. people, but not you.
im studying where i need to and want to be studying, but ure not here with me.
-unlike how we used to talk about growing older together.

so my dear friend, can we smile like we did some years ago! like there was no tomorrow-

things that ive accomplised this week that makes cow a happy cow (:

1. I COOKED MY OWN RICE!

2. WE went crabbing; AND I CAUGHT CRABS!

3. andrew(boy) taught me how to pump petrol! so i pumped my first 7.93 L of petrol! cost $9.99 btw!

4. went for icecream at midnight, and a big macho man JUMPED behind me cos of a cockroach. :D ( I PROTECTED A GUY. HA!) just like the KOMODO DRAGON THING. (HINT HINT)

5. rode in andrew's car. drastically different from ANDROOEY's driving i must say!

cheeks, eug, mitch, andrew, skinnyman, simon are really nice guys who drive us around, but they have the most unhealthy eating times! unclebilly's at midnight.- dinner. HMMM. but they've been a really fun bunch! i had an awesome weekend! NOW TIME FOR THE CRAZY MUGGING!

hmmm, life here and people here make me treasure friends back home ALOT. really. i miss the awesome friends i have back home. people i trust so much, love too much, grow together in all aspects of life, and just hang out with each other. i miss the honesty and how much we clicked just like that.

unlike the feeling here when ure forced to come together, under SOME circumstance, and then ure expected to have common interest, same amount of maturity and become , best friends for life. its sucha sickening thought sometimes. it makes me wanna scream out in frustration sometimes- at the OBVIOUS lack of unity in mindset we have. i miss you colleeenybabeh i miss talking deep stuff with you. what nian said was true. like, there was NO ulterior motive. we love eached other because we just did! i love EVERYONE on my links list. CG and all. its quite a sickening feeling here not knowing who's trustworthy or whatever shite. if someone comes and betray me, im gonna jack them up so bad. cos i have a feeling something like that might happen. might. i dont need no fake friends alright. pissmeoff only. there's this really tense atmosphere going on here, aint good i tell you. pisses me off badly sometimes cos i didnt come here as jane said, to be a babysitter.

MOVING ON, other than that negative side of life, im loving it all i think? i taught dafffy how to use skype :D that's good stuff! now i can talk to daffunu anytime i want! after talking to daff till around 5, quickly showered, and slept for 10 mins, bfore my friend came over to wait for andrew to pick us up at 7. went with amelia and rachel and audrey, for dinner at broadway (some popular asian food place i think?) then BASKIN ROBBINS, then drove down south to meet cheeks, eug, simon, james, and abel. waited while they ate their dinner. it was already 10 by then! we were supposed to crab at 10. ANYHOWS, we drove down to mandurah, which was an hour or so away!

was slightly before midnight by the time we got there. CRABBING IS FUN! rach was so scared she was clinging on to me ): and i keep getting shocks cos she's scared of fishes! thank god there was eug who was quite a MAN. it was kinda like blind walking cos u trudge in the water to catch these crabs, with flashlights and nets of course, and its kinda freaky especially when u step in the sand holes, or when u step in algae, cos the crabs might just bite you, but i had pretty cool catches! cheeks and eug taught me how to crab! (: yea, AND I DIDNT GET INJURD!

came home at 5 am. LONG STORY. eug's car's immobaliser got wet, if that's how u spell it. we had to wait for RSA. $148 bucks, was it worth it compared to driving 2.5 hours home to get the spare immobaliser, and then driving the 2.5 hours back? (:

dear jesus, i pray that my chem test will go well tmr! i got tons to study, and i need strength. I NEED YOU LORD JESUS, so please be my guide, my strength, and my source of wisdom. the things that surround are too distracting, and sometimes far too stressful. but in u lord, we trust, and as long as i give my best, that my dear jesus, you promise you'd do the rest.

so calm my spirits and chase the fears away. chase even those negative thoughts, for we hold u dear!


- im holding on to you; hiding under your wings , for you are my strong tower

i know im truly bless. really. just when i finished that prayer, korkor came online! and then we talked! (: and then i was blog surfing for a lil, cos multi tasking, and i stumbled upon jakeeee the humsup's blog! and it made me smile! althought it was sucha LONG time ago he typed that.
gorgeous dingdong . i should be mad right? hehs.